If I had 9 lives

If I had 9 lives to live
I'd live them all just looking for you
For in this heart, I know and believe
That I was made for you

If I had 9 lives to live
Then the other 8 would be dull and blue
The mountains I'd climb, The seas I'd sail
But to me there's only one "YOU"

If I had 9 lives to live
I'd give the rest away
I'd enjoy this one lifetime
As long as, in the end, you'll stay

If I had 9 lives to live
And the memory of you would stay
I'd bargain to God the other lives
Just to be with you for another day

If I had 9 lives to live
I'd live the other 8 happy enough
For at least, in a lifetime
You and I have this kind of love

HAAAAAAPY 9TH MOOOOOOONTH MY PRIIIIIIIIIINCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES GWAAAAAAAAAAAPAAAAAAAAAANDAAAAAA BAAAAAAAAAAAAABOOOOOOOOOOOOY!!!! 
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The (Feeling) Singer Inside Of Me

Aaaaaand soo... Because I feel like singing these songs for a surprise. Hehehe...

1st song is from Ed Sheeran. This song is called Lego House. So this is take 3 and I hate so many takes. No edits. Pure acoustic! Hehe. Well. OK.

The second one is a request by my Girlfriend way back eons ago. It's called "Smile" by Uncle Cracker. This basically describes our love. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeee! Well, this is one take only. And too many fails! Bear with the boredom.

OK. END OF POST. KBYE!

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Bad jokes

I know you just want to protect your sister from what happened with you with your girlfriend. I know things are not on your plans. I know it's hard for you to accept.

But please. Stop teasing us that we are gonna be married sooner than you. As a matter of fact, we have plans ourselves. We made a promise. 6 years is 6 years. No child-bearing reasons, just pure love and destiny. No child till we settle down on ourselves.

Don't get jealous when I take care of your cousin (or let's have it your way: sister). I want to protect her the best way I can. Don't treat me like I'm just the same as the other boys who would only want to get in her pants. NO. I want to get in her heart. I want to make her happy. I want to make her my life. I want need her to be by my side.

And don't be envy because things went right for us. We are careful enough, and it was not our problem you failed to do so. Don't wish us bad luck just because we are doing things in a good way. It sounds so immature.

Lastly, don't kid around about that. It's a bad joke to tell to lovers. I mean, it was OK the first time we heard it. Just do not abuse the laughter in that sensitive joke. It's kind of getting into our nerves just now.

We are sweet. We love each other. We fuss a little and but we end in love and laughter. But that does not mean we are so getting married right away. It means we are happy with each other. Don't worry, I'll marry her in our own time. AND WE WILL PROVE TO YOU THAT MARRIAGE IS NOT JUST A RITE. IT IS A SACRAMENT.

You Have the Rights

Dear my Princess GwaPanda Baboy,

I wrote this because I want to make it clear. I wrote this because I want you to know, that you have the rights to stalk me. And these are my arguments.

1. You have the right to stalk whoever I chat, whomsoever status I like, whatsoever I comment. I'd rather have an overly attached girlfriend (that's what you are but you want to say that it was cool even though it wasn't) than one who doesn't give a damn about me. I'd rather have you checking out who's who in my life than to never ever hear about whatever I say.

2. You have the right to be jealous. 'Cause as a matter of fact, I get jealous. I always get jealous (well, not for those who call you sexy, I tag them inappropriate hehe). I get jealous because you talk about and praise guys in front of me. And you, as my girlfriend, have the right to get jealous.

3. It's not your fault that you happened to browse my phonebook and there was a girl with a smiley on her name, or look at my old FB pictures and those pictures with my ex were still there. It's my fault because I did not clean up after my mess. The problem is not that you are too curious and that you want to check me out. It's me not erasing those moments that do not matter to me anymore because I'm too confident you'd never find out.

4. I never want you to doubt me. But I also never want you to hide these doubts and keep hurting yourself for anything that I have done. I never ever want to make you cry, though sometimes I know I did. It hurts for me to see you cry. But it burns me inside when you cry and I don't know what the reason was. So if you're jealous or angry or pissed, tell me.

5. I always stalk you. I always want to know about who you are with, why you were there, what you are doing, and stuffs like that. That is because I wanna check how you were doing out there without me. That's why I get sad when I hear about your plurks that you are angry, confused, afraid, etc..

6. I really don't have a problem with you stalking me. It's for you to guard your heart from any mischief I might do. Do not think of it as a bad habit, but instead, treat it as a good move.

7. Yes, find this corny, but I just want to show my all to you. I want to show you that even though I had those flaws, I would do everything I need to, just to make you stay with me forever.

These facts and more that I could not recall of are the reasons why I want you to stalk me. If ever you have complaints/comments, just text me or type in your comment below.

Thanks for the time and hoping for your warm-hearted consideration.

Your Prince GwaPolar Baboy,

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P.S. I wrote this because... I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOOOOOOOOOU SOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH GWAPA!!!! :* :* :* :* :* :* :*

This Sucks

When you are really trying to be an open book. It sucks. It sucks even more when she won't tell me what's wrong with me. It's been 8 months and we would be on this same problem again. I don't really care if it's a small problem or a big one. What I really care is that it's a problem. How could we even solve bigger problems when she can't even share the smallest of them? She call for her friends for the smallest problems, so most probably she'd call them also for the bigger ones. I don't know, it just hurts when we can talk about it but she opts to talk to anyone other than me.

I hate this feeling. God knows I hate this feeling. Is it trust issues? Is it just me being insensitive to what she might feel? Am I too much of an open book that I am predictable? Or do I need to open more pages of me?

I can't read her sometimes. She doesn't want me to. If ever there was a problem, she opens the other page, the "I'M OKAY" page. How would I know what's the problem? Does she know that it hurts me more when she ask others about what to do with our problems? Seriously they do not know about us. I know there was but I need to know what. I'm not a psychic for me to know what she feels or what triggers that feeling. :'(

CONFUSIONS CLOUD MY MIND. This sucks the most but yes. EMOTE MODE.

POEM #8

So let me tell you about a love so innate
About a girl with whom I have same traits
About a love that I can't hate
For sweet months that went eight

For all the girls that I have met
She's the one I could never ever forget
My life so dull she had ornate
The reason that we reached eighth

My heart still goes on a faster rate
Whenever I see her before our dates
I still can't forget the talks when we stay up late
Even though we already reached eighth

She for me is the perfect mate
Even though my eyes at times they dilate
On thinking of how much rice she ate
Still laugh at it on our month number eight

Maybe when we have a situation we hate
Or even when we have a special date
I greet her with flowers and chocolates
And I would do so, even in this eighth

Darling, you are definitely worth the wait
How about my family name on your nameplate?
Yes, soon enough because years will wait
But for now we will enjoy our eighth

My love, we've come by this state
Because you and I have a love this great
And you have loved me through my overreacting traits
Sure enough, we would cherish more eights

PS. This is for the smiles and love you gave to me. Because of this, we reached our happy 8th... I LOVE YOU KRISMARIE DIANNE CEZAR!!! :*

7 days a week

Whenever you need someone to care
Whenever you need someone to be there
When all of the clouds surround you
Seven days a week, I'd be here for you

When the burdens you cannot bear
With your problems you cannot share
When life seems to be unfair
Seven days a week, I'm here to care

When the world seems to turn its back on you
I will be the one to carry you through
When tears start to fall and you want to surrender
Seven days a week, you could cry on my shoulders

Whenever you need a loyal companion
I'll be someone you could rely on
Promises can break but this one can't do
Seven days a week, I LOVE YOU.

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ps. I know things around are hard to bear these times. But please don't give up on life. My heart can't stand to see you sad. I hope I could just ease your pain. Still, I'm here for you and will try to fix you. :*

BUSY! but INSPIRED... :D

Yes. That was my thesis on the side. I need to comply on the deadlines before I am dead. Every week is a paper I need to comply or revise. I should be dead by now! O_O

And yes. That was my girlfriend/cook/mom/hugging machine/boss. And now, whenever I need to watch my thesis and all other stuffs right there, I just stare and it will make me feel inspired to do things. I think of my life with her in the future, our plans, our goals together.

And yes. I CAN DO ALL OF THESE THINGS. AND MORE.

:DDDDDD

Poem #6

6 months that weve been through

6 lines I always say to you

these lines have said what's in my heart

6 lines in hopes we would never part

"Ingats ha," I'd say to show my care

when at your side I could not be there

"See you later" when we would have a date

coz I know when I'm with you, everything's great

"Good morning" in every day of our lives

Coz you were the first thing on my mind

"Good night" when I sleep at night

Hoping when I wake up you'd be by my side

Saying "I miss you" when I want you near

when I miss your hugs and kisses, my dear

"I love you" coz I need you to know

How dear you are to me, and I'll never let go

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P.S. Francis Loves Krissy <3

Funny, But Annoying

Well, it has been 6 months since I had this relationship with Gwapa (Krismarie Dianne Cezar is her real name). And I find it weird that every time we see one of her friends, some would mistake me for someone, still.

It was funny the first time it happened. I mean, it was just new, like 2nd month, and I understand that they do not know me. But the thing is, it keeps happening and happening. What I hated is that they call me the name of her ex-boyfriend.

This is a boyfriend's dilemma. One does not want to be called by the ex'es name, am I right? I mean, this sucks. I am very different from that scumbag who hurt my girl's heart over and over. I just hate the feeling that you've just been a copycat.

By the way, it's RESTONI, not RICK. It's for a reason that my nickname is TON. And unlike him, I will be the man who will be the opposite of that kid. Instead of leaving, I'd be staying. Instead of hurting, I'd be caressing. Instead of fighting, I'd be the one who understands her.

I'd be the knight who will protect my princess from bandits like him. :)

Shut up homophobic seal. This is serious stuff.

Forevermore

This feeling maybe surreal

But yet I feel this more and more

so today I am making this pact

I wanna be with you forevermore

No shame, I'm about to tell the world

This heart of mine cannot be ignored

Yes dear, I know this love's not blurred

I wanna love you forevermore

Your hugs it's so stuck on my mind

Always want that moment everytime

And your hand so tender, feels like I could soar

I wanna hold you forevermore

And in the night when I try to sleep

And when I'm too tired of counting sheeps

All I want is you with me for sure

wrapped in my arms forevermore

And as much as i think of you

I want to show this love is true

I miss you my dear and it hurts me more

All I want is you, forevermore

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Happy Birthday to My Love!

So I tried to surprise her on her 20th birthday last May 7 2012. I tried to surprise her but all of my plans seems to fail. But the best part is I surprised her! So as a poetic boyfriend, I tried to put my feelings into words. And so here it goes:

Everyday, there's this smile on my face

That nothing or no one ever can erase

It's love that I felt that it could not be true

Love that I felt from you

I'm thinking of special ways to thank you

but alas, nothing could ever do

So I thank God and asked Him to bless you

And show you happiness I could never give to you

On this special day I'm proud to show

What I feel and why I felt it so

I'm lucky to have a girl as perfect for me as you

Happy birthday, KRISMARIE DIANNE CEZAR! I LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU! :*

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Three Words

Three words to ponder

Three words to say

Three words with wonder

Three words to take the pain away

Three words have been said

Three words like promises fade away

Three words makes life with colors

Three words made my life grey

Three words you said to me

Three words and my heart you set free

Three words you proved to me

Three words and my life is in glee

Three words in this world is cliche

Three words but to you I will say

Three words I say I will live this through

Three words: I LOVE YOU... :*

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The Two of Us

I love it when we are together
Like no one is there and we make each other blush
We have no care about the rest of the world
Not a bit, just the two of us

I can't explain this feeling
The way you say I'm your everything
You make me feel like I'm the best no one has
No I'm not, because it's the two of us

The way we text each other
like we are sure of what's forever
I'm not afraid that this world may crush
Coz I know in this world there's the two of us

You are the reason for every breath I take
I love you for every breath I make
I'm not afraid to love and got lost
Coz I know there's just the two of us :D

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The One

The one I love
The one I'm thinking of
The one I ever dreamed of
The one, you are

The one I could talk with
The one who took my breath away
The one who gave me courage to say
The one, you are

The one who put this smile
Who makes the time worthwhile
For you I could go for extra miles
The one, you are

The one who made me see
How beautiful this life can be
How blessed I am that you found me
The one, you are

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P.S. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Thanks for making me happy. XD

Happiest Week

You put a smile on my face,

You make me happy in many ways.

YES! I've fallen for you

FRANCIS, I ALREADY LOVE YOU, it's TRUE. :)

Well, what can a poet say?

I just went out to say my prayer,

And thanked God you were there.

Came back to my room and checked my phone,

Then your text came along.

That feel I could not express,

But I knew I had the best.
I know it's been awkward but you're worth the wait,

KRISSY! I LOVE YOU AND EVERYDAY WITH YOU IS A PERFECT DATE! :D

Stupid ninjas with their onions! :'))

What Love Meant

Asking "Which is more important to humans, to love or to be loved?" is like asking "Which is more important to birds, the left wing or the right wing?"

Tsk. Sorry Twitter Followers and Facebook Friends who tweeted and posted this question, but I beg to differ. It is, for me, too stubborn to give love and expect some to be given back.

To love someone without asking for a return is more important. It's the basic. Love is free, you can give it away to anyone. To be loved is only a reward -- a hard-to-earn reward. You have to show how much you love that someone till she falls for you.

For me, the metaphor has been wrong. It should be that LOVING SOMEONE is the WINGS that makes us fly and TO BE LOVED is the WIND that keeps the flight easier and worthwhile.. :))

Hey You!

Yeah, you.

You with your messy hair,
the seemingly tired eyes,
the awkward crooked smile,
and the one who thinks she's unimportant.

I want you to know that you're beautiful and I love you.

Damn, if only things are just as fast and sweet as this quote. But I don't even have the guts to say these words to her. :(

Movie Review: The Adjustment Bureau

I always believed that life is nothing but a big cause-and-effect. You win the game because you trained hard, or you're just too awesome. If you fail, then sorry, you just have to try harder.

But this movie was just not what I thought. According to this movie, there's always someone (or some men) who controls your present, be it spilling your coffee or witnessing a car crash, to control what is planned for your future. The Adjustment Bureau was there from the start, so we can change our minds and instead go to where we are supposed to be. They change the way we think, the way we see things, and the way things go to achieve their goals as set in the master plan of our lives.

When politician David Norris (played by Matt Damon) ran for senate, it was a hard time for him. He thought he was winning all along. Then down went the votes. After practicing his lines in the Men's Comfort Room, he realized he was not alone. That's how she met Elise Sellas (Emily Blunt), a girl whose free and wild spirit captured his senses. But alas, they're destined only to meet that night. Or is it? Nope, Chuck Testa. They met again when a member of the Bureau, Harry Mitchell, failed to keep him down. So, when the time was stopped, that's when David went inside the conference room and found the other members of the society manipulating the minds of those other people.

And so, I will not spill further details of what the story is, just a little bit of useful and bloggable data. Sorry. ;)

I certainly loved the movie, because it showed how love moves people to do their stuff, against all odds, even fate. That's what I want to absorb inside, the guts to go on and think that fate is so overrated not to let me try.

The only sick concept here is that some men can hold your thought, change it because that was planned. As David said, "What happened to freewill?" I hate the concept that you can't move to what your guts tells you to. You just let fate control you. You have no choice, like it or not, regret it or not, it's meant to be and it's gonna freaking happen. But it gave me also positive outlooks, that if you're meant to be, you will be.

I love the concept of the ending. Just watch the movie because it was worth it anyways. I won't spill it for you. Just one of the last lines said in the movie.

"...free will is a gift you'll never know how to use until you fight for it." This may learn to be a lesson to us. As the old chant says, CARPE DIEM! XD

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The Curse of 11/11/11

Have I told you to be careful what you wish for the last time I posted a blog? Last time I checked, yes I did. Just making sure you did not wish for something stupid. Because 11/11/11 is taking its toll on me.

I wished to see her and have a conversation with her. The whole week I wished for such stupid time. And who knows? I saw her on the mall today. Or so I thought. But I swear to God it was her that I saw. But I'm hesitant to talk. It was in the grocers, and I may not take how my brother might "bug" me and my blushing face. I was just happy I saw her, but I was saddened by the fact that I did not have the chance to hear her voice.

I took it as it was, that it was not yet my time, then my second cousin's cousin (yep, that explains how far cousins we were) started to hit the same girl. I should have told you, he's also a groomsman in the wedding, And also in the game of the improvised Trip to Jerusalem. I did not know he almost had an affair once with her.  Now we move on to the story, leading us to Facebook. And guess who's using the Ad Hominem Fallacy against me to have more points on her? Wow, I could not believe he said that to her publicly. I mean, that's kind of rude for someone to poison the well just to have the girl.

He was just lucky that we went to the church right away after we went to the mall. Because at that time, she was online. Grabe, I did not have a minute for a conversation with her. I only asked for even just a Facebook chat with her. I could have protected her from such douchebag-ness of that cousin. >:|

Everything was just a trial. I must know how to care for her. Maybe one day, she could MIGHT be the one for me. I could not wait for that day to come! I believe she don't deserve those douchebags, she deserves a knight-in-a-shining-armor-to-be. OOOOPS. I'm overstating a fact, therefore it was a fallacy I said. Dayumn. But on the first place, I will not do such to a lady like her, that's what I could assure her if she only knew. Haaaaay....